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so yeah nothing to say again...
so meg is back which is great. okay bye
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Thursday, March 24th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:59 am. |
| Mood: |  bitchy. | | Music: | none. |
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Not sure why I am updating. I have nothing to say. I've had a long week and I’m not getting enough sleep. I am really tired but at the same time I can’t fall asleep. I find myself dicking around on the internet, watching endless hours of cable TV, and wishing I was fast asleep and could stay like that for days.
A side note....the librarians are all wearing ridiculous bunny ears...they look like complete fools. Even the young ones. Yuck
Well I have an espanol test to study for, peace out.
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Thursday, March 10th, 2005
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| Subject: | tired |
| Time: | 1:49 am. |
| Mood: |  tired. | | Music: | last call with carson. |
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well thought i would update. not sure anyone is reading this so i will say one thing. i miss you and the count-down is on baby. so yeah
well lost my id and my b-day is coming up. yeah that sucks
well so yeah i will talk later....when i am not so tired
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Monday, February 21st, 2005
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So lately I have been sleeping really weird. I will wake up and be very disoriented and confused and don’t know what I am doing. Like last night i woke up at 4 and was whacked-out. I pick up my remote and was shaking and then I got up and realized it was 4 and got back in bed. My brain was so messed up…I didn’t know what days it was or what time…was in afternoon or morning??? It sucked. So yeah maybe I should do a sleep study??? I don’t know. Well arrived late yet again today for class….I ran out of gas on 84th street like half-way between Clyde Park and the freaking gas-station. The Kent-county road commission stopped by and got me some gas….that was nice of him and he was way cute.
I feel like I have no friends. It sorta sucks….because I know it is just a feeling and not true…but I want to change my life and I am finding it hard. I am working-out like three times a week and that feels good and is fun..but I still want to change other things in my life. I have been in a valley for ever and need to start assending to the peak. I want to have faith. If not for myself now…then for myself later.
Did this last week fly by for anyone else? I swear it was just v-day or in my case, SAD – singles awareness day. Que lastima.
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Thursday, February 17th, 2005
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| Time: | 11:30 am. |
| Mood: |  bored. | | Music: | Sr. Kat's loud voice coming from the next room. |
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So it is Thursday and already I want it to be Sunday so I can sleep all day. Very tired today and wish that someone else would do my ethics homework...but that wouldn’t be to ethic now would it? No, no it wouldn’t.
Walked out to my car a half hour ago and attempted to start my car and then realized the lights had been on while I was in my bible class. Yes that’s right my car is dead right now. The bad thing is that I can’t open my hood. The lever to open it is broke. Nice
Spanish is kicking my butt...I the teacher sucks, the whole class failed the first test...(I got the highest in the class...a 67%!!!!!) the rest of the class wants to go to the department head and see what they can do...but we asked her if there was anything we could do and she said no. Beautiful
So as for the rest of my week, I worked a double on Tuesday because some old man was going crazy. I felt really bad because we had to restrain him because he was combative, and I think we left bruises on his ankles and wrists. It was not very fun...neither is working three shifts in two days. Also I have to work tomorrow and then I get some much needed time off. Thank you lord
Work is not all bad but I would like some social activists here soon. Had lunch with Sara and Angela and some other girls...and it was fun then I ran Angela up to the stab-mart for some cigarettes and totally hit a car pulling out. Oops
Going to diner on Friday with some friends that I miss terribly, but I have to work third shift. Should I call-in or try to reschedule with the friends. Who knows?
So I think Monday was the most productive day I have ever had in my life.
1. Woke up
2. School by 9:30 - test in first class
3. Class ends at 10:45--in library by 10:55
4. Looked at airfare and hotels for my make-believe spring break
5. Studied in library for test in my second class
6.1:30 test in class till 2:45
7. All class end by 3:50 and went back home.
8. Baked a cake and burned a cd and picked up Liv all by 5
9. Brought my brother up to school so he could give his gf flowers
10. Went to gym to work out from 7:45 till 9:00
11. went home to change
12. Went to Kim’s house
13. Went out to Denny’s with Kim and Stacie
14. By 12:00--went over to Cheryl’s house and they all played card games while I gave everyone back massages
15. By 2:00 -- went out for tea and coffee with Kim and Stacee, talked about everything under the sun, and had great convos about faith, bush, and American idiots.
16. At around 4ish, got home and hit the sack. Wow....that’s all I have to say.
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Thursday, February 10th, 2005
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| Time: | 2:32 am. |
| Mood: |  rejuvenated. | | Music: | -none. |
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So had some fun tonight.....at church! It was Ash Wednesday today (well technically yesterday) and then I chilled with Gaby, Laura, and Becky whom I haven’t seen in like years. It was way fun. I have so much homework and don’t want to do any of it. That’s not good. I am really emotional today/tonight. Couldn’t stop crying tonight.
I have so many weird patients this week....I swear that I should get paid more for the weird-ass shit I have to do. Well now that I have said that....I still wish I got paid more.
Don’t you just love late night b-movies on obscure cable channels? I do that’s for damn sure. but now i cant sleep....im sure i will be up for a couple more hours or so.
I miss everyone. Night
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Monday, January 31st, 2005
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I can’t take it anymore...my home life is unsatisfying. School is going okay....some of my classes are really hard this semester. I like my art history class and that’s about it. But ya know how it goes. So yeah I think that if I don’t get some resolutions in my life...I will go insane. I am missing my best friend right now….but I know she is having fun. Love you doll face. So yeah watching Orange County right now....gotta go.
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Monday, January 24th, 2005
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| Subject: | boo |
| Time: | 11:06 am. |
| Mood: |  confused. | | Music: | none - in comp lab. |
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boo to this day and this week and this life.
Raefael called a couple nights ago and tells me that he is off to Iraq (well after 4 months of training in Mississippi or some other southern state. you know i never pay attention over the phone!) it was kinda sad but he told me he was gonna go a long time ago and finally he is going....about freaking time!!! it is sad cuz he finally got a car and an apt...but how long has it taking him? forever! but nonetheless i am happy for him. i hope he does well and is safe. he wants to go out for coffee and "talk" and this time i think he means just talk. he told me i broke his heart and wants to know why i broke up with him. Should i go? should i tell him the truth? i mean he leaves on the 5th and i think i will feel really bad if i don't tell him....but at the same time, it will be kinda hard to see him. well answer my questions, bitches.
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Sunday, January 16th, 2005
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well its the weekend and i am here by my self with nothing to do. yesterday i hung out with some friends from my old job....that was cool...we watched Love actually and drank arbor mist...fun girlie time. Kristen went back to Virgina to her extremely conservative college and we fought about bush for like 20 mins..it was fun. i told her the funny joke that sara told me at lunch and she was not amused. oh well. i hate sundays...i feel like i just wanna stay in bed and sleep until i cant sleep anymore and then do nothing after that but eat grapes and strawberries until i puke. yeah that sounds good. still depressed....most likely i will be like this until something good happens to me, which i don't see anytime in the near future. as sad as it is, being depressed has its advantages. i don't have to show my face to my fam cause they know i will just bite their heads off if they speak to me, i catch up on the important things like the 40 most shocking hair moments on vh1, and of course wallow in my own self-pity. hoo-who! ok enough. well later all and i love you meg.
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Thursday, January 13th, 2005
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| Subject: | oh god |
| Time: | 11:09 am. |
| Mood: |  without. | | Music: | the pecking of keys. |
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why is this so hard from me. at aq in woodhouse...particaly sobing. i miss her so much. i hope with more weeks it will get easier but right know its really hard.
so i talked to a really great girl last night and it was nice. well more then nice...very enjoyable. it feelings are so torn right now and a small choice has turned into a ugly monster of a choice. i cant have people be losing respect for me and that is possible what might happen. oh well we will see.
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Sunday, January 9th, 2005
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The semester will start tomorrow and I am not looking foward to it. Not ready and don't wanna go. I think that if I was smarter and more independent, I would take the half year off and travel or work full time to save up. In my dreams this is what I want. But because I am a pussy and can't stand up to my mother and because I have no money and if I do have some it all goes to bills, I will just have to continue to mooch and live off others. How sad and depressing it sounds.
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Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
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So i shall post at this time....
unsure of what to say at this time. tired...a little sick...and svu is on and i just can't stop watching.
ummm i must go now, bye.
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Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:40 pm. |
| Mood: |  silly. | | Music: | cursive-driftwood. |
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kris should delete this...meg is on her box!!!
AHHH!
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